I need to slow down and sit in silence. My job is very busy, and while there is little I can do to change that, I can return to my old habit of escaping to a quiet place during the workday to recharge with the Lord. As a full-time student, I am also busy off-the-clock. I used to journal while I was studying, but sadly, I ignore the Lord’s nudges to come away with Him more and more these days. Spending snapshots of time with the Lord at work and while studying sustained my peace and made me more productive. I am going to stop telling myself that I’m too busy.
I’ve also discovered that I have reached a season in which I have no choice but to sit in silence with God because reading the Bible and prayer don’t seem as helpful as they used to be. For some reason, chapters in the Bible are a jumble of words. My prayers are a mix of, “I don’t know,” and “Please, help.” Still, I avoid sitting in silence. I don’t want to hear myself think, and for different reasons, I don’t want to hear what the Lord has to say.
The other day, I expressed these same feelings to the Lord, and His response was quite reassuring. “Come sit with me,” He said. “I only have good things to say.”
So, instead fighting stillness, I’ll sit quietly with my very best friend. We’ll talk only when necessary, and we’ll wait for whatever it is we’re waiting for.
Your narration reminded me the story of Martha and Mary (Luke 10: 38-42). And helped me to pose and look into my own. If we are honest, we are more and more becoming Martha (distracted by all the preparations that have to be made, verse 40) not Marry— thus the real danger and the urgency to escape this danger. That is only by becoming Mary—sitting at the Lord’s feet and listen what he has to say (verse 39).That might be the opposite of what we might want to hear, as you articulated—“ I don’t want to hear what the Lord has to say.”
As I read your writings and ponder on them, as usual I discovered an embedded messages and this scripture jumped to me: If we want God’s way, perhaps miracles, not only we need to sit at His feet and listen what he has to say, but also “Do whatever He tells you to do” (John 2:5). One thing I know, the Lord is faithful!
Thank you so much. Be at peace!
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