I need to slow down and sit in silence. My job is very busy, and while there is little I can do to change that, I can return to my old habit of escaping to a quiet place during the workday to recharge with the Lord. As a full-time student, I am also busy off-the-clock. I used to journal while I was studying, but sadly, I ignore the Lord’s nudges to come away with Him more and more these days. Spending snapshots of time with the Lord at work and while studying sustained my peace and made me more productive. I am going to stop telling myself that I’m too busy.
I’ve also discovered that I have reached a season in which I have no choice but to sit in silence with God because reading the Bible and prayer don’t seem as helpful as they used to be. For some reason, chapters in the Bible are a jumble of words. My prayers are a mix of, “I don’t know,” and “Please, help.” Still, I avoid sitting in silence. I don’t want to hear myself think, and for different reasons, I don’t want to hear what the Lord has to say.
The other day, I expressed these same feelings to the Lord, and His response was quite reassuring. “Come sit with me,” He said. “I only have good things to say.”
So, instead fighting stillness, I’ll sit quietly with my very best friend. We’ll talk only when necessary, and we’ll wait for whatever it is we’re waiting for.